one step softer always
that’s what you said
one step self involved
but how else and what else
all else hurts, is
sin, is metal and ice and burns
—-
i am right there
still standing
survived the brunt of it
because i am, the fittest, the most safe,
the least learned, Darwin in his holiness
could not have seen you coming
like fumigating, like floor finish
you’ve choked me out - i am blue
does it go well with this dress
i am
not enough
for all of the sight of you
but here i am just limping
i’m finding myself slipping
bitter is better; bitter, better for you
that pale as death skin from
scalp to shoulder
so … soft
so sweet i think
if i could only scrape it with my teeth i think
maybe i’d scrape at you too
there you are, life
jutted out against the skyline
pounding and beating
unable to see the slope of
things
each breath, equally important
but moments get forgotten
and you pound away
day after day
wasted, gone
in all your possibilities
nothing changes
nothing and nothing at all
and sometimes
its all too much to handle
the way the breeze swells with
wet and sweet and
brushes underneath my knees
and the moon is fucking blinding
the reminder of —- so much else
out there
and then, the insignificance of all of this
it steps right in
what - who - why not
whats the point
i am nothing, no one
dust on the blinds
settled where the day can reach
settled to get brushed away
i am made of all the things that make a person
flake
made of air
water
softer stuff
